Stephen Koch

Last Friday afternoon, the writer C. Carr interviewed me for her forthcoming biography of the late David Wojanrowicz, the phenomenal young painter and writer, who died of AIDS in 1992 at the age of 38, and who was the surrogate son of Peter Hujar.  We had a lot to talk about. David and Peter’s lives and deaths were momentously intertwined.

David Wojanrowicz was the decisive artistic relationship at the end of Peter Hujar’s career. Peter was (I think) the decisive artistic relationship in the beginning of David’s. Their story is one of the most fascinating in the annals of the downtown eighties scene in New York, and when I heard the news that Cindy Carr had signed with Bloomsbury to write David’s biography I felt a shiver of excitement, sensing that this story had maybe found its storyteller.

And when I told Cindy I’d been waiting for her call, she seemed mildly surprised, and that surprised me a little. This encounter had to happen.

“So how much time do you think you’ll need?” I asked.

Cindy is really terribly polite, not in the least intrusive, and so she murmured something about maybe an hour. One hour? “I think,” I said, “we’d better plan on two. At least.”

In fact, we barely got started in just under three.

Peter and David met in a bar: a plain old pick-up sometime in the winter of 1980-1981. David was twenty-six, a driven but directionless kid battered by dazzling but anarchic gifts that he was not yet even close to knowing how to handle.  And like Peter, David’s physical presence was a little intimidating: you could feel the heat of his youthful anger feeding and his youthful need feeding each other’s fire.

Peter was by then pushing fifty, the strong silent eminence of Deep Downtown.  He was a somebody who knew Everybody, and yet he was chronically alone, an artist who who’d produced several decades worth of masterful artistic achievement known to Everybody from Arbus to Warhol to Mapplethorpe—but to nobody else.  He could make art.  He could not manage a career.  From the outside, he looked commanding.  Inside, he struggled with depression, and woke up many mornings thinking he was maybe getting to the end of his rope.

The older artist with his achievement and the younger artist with his possibilities transformed each other’s destinies, and their story is a tremendous biographical read.  I am not going to steal any of Cindy Carr’s thunder here, but I do want to note the broad outline of how I see their friendship, and while I’m at it, clear up a myth.

The myth is that David and Peter were partners.  Wrong.  True enough, step one was a pick-up in a bar, and David and Peter certainly did have a sexual fling.  It lasted maybe two months.  Maybe less.  David’s actual partner, then and to the end of his life, was an admirable and very together guy named Tom Rauffenbart, who is now David’s executor and heir. I know of no evidence that David ever once considered leaving Tom for Peter, and David soon let Peter know (probably to Peter’s regret) that he did not want their obviously life-changing relationship to remain sexual.

After that, the really powerful phase of the friendship began: mutual artistic transformation.  Peter looked at David and saw life-redeeming young talent.  David looked at Peter and saw life-directing achievement. Peter’s achievement gave David’s talent direction and definition.  David’s promise gave Peter’s achievement rejuvenation and vindication.  David needed someone who cared passionately about what he might do.

Peter needed someone who cared just as passionately about what he had done. David needed direction–shaping, seriousness, discipline.  Maturity, in a word. A father.  Peter needed someone whose boundless energy and boisterous talent gave him new life, and in whose success he could rejoice without a second thought.  In short, he needed a son.

What you see here is a taste of what went between them visually.

Peter Hujar is turning into history. The man I knew has become his art, and the art is spinning off a set of myths, some based in fact, some not.

Meanwhile, I gape at this statistic: If he’d lived, Peter would now be seventy-five. What hits me hardest about the throngs coming through his exhibitions is their youth. Not one fan in fifty is Peter’s own generation. Most were children when he died; there are six-footers assessing Candy Darling on her Deathbed (pictured below), who in 1987 hadn’t even been born. For them, Peter Hujar is his art.

But more and more they want to know his story.  Here’s a start.

Peter was rooted in the now-vanishing mean Manhattan streets of his beloved Weegee. His father was a small-time bootlegger; his stepfather was a small-time bookie; his mother was a waitress in a small-time diner. It was all very Damon Runyon stuff, and it stayed with him to the end.

Even the story behind his loft on Twelfth Street and Second Avenue, (later David Wojnarowicz’s studio) could come from Guys and Dolls.  It was originally the rehearsal space the once-famous “Yiddish Art Theater,” where the very young Marx Brothers, still “Minnie’s boys,” rehearsed in the same room where Peter did his great Portrait of T.C. (pictured below. T.C., herself, by the way, was a stripper.) Peter moved in during the seventies, when it was vacated by its sixties occupant, the Warhol drag star Jackie Curtis. Jackie, in turn, was in the loft through the good offices of his grandmother, a neighborhood legend known as “Slugger Ann,”  who had spent the thirties as a dime-a-dance girl in Times Square, picking up her nickname from what she did to dime-a-dancers who got a little too friendly during the slow tunes. After that, for three decades, Slugger ran a bar —”Slugger Ann’s”—kitty-corner from the loft, where she held court and micromanaged everything semi-legal (like lofts) in the neighborhood, while her grandson Jackie went from being a toddler on the barroom floor to perverse fame in Andy Warhol’s entourage.

A classic merger of Manhattan high and low. Like Peter himself.

Hujar’s early childhood was grim. The bootlegger father abandoned the waitress mother without a penny while she was pregnant. Since Rose Hujar couldn’t work keep her job in the diner and raise her son alone, she left Peter in the care of her Ukrainian mother and father on their farm in New Jersey. There Peter was at first protected by his grandmother from a passel of other relatives he remembered as a pack of screaming, ignorant, drunken, lust-and-greed driven brutes who robbed him of the natural happiness of being a little boy and filled him with a child’s resolve—later the grown man’s resolve—never, never, never to think, feel, live or breathe like any of them.

And he didn’t. The man I knew was deliberate, observant, reserved, very smart, slow to speak, a little severe; a blend of intimacy and distance for which the camera was a perfect metaphor. His manner was studied but completely unaffected. He was really incapable of phoniness. I never once saw him fake anything, and that alone made him innately elegant. The horror of New Jersey was concealed beneath the surface, an unstoppable undercurrent of anger.

The farm had one saving grace. When he was around ten, Peter was given a Brownie camera. The kid was ecstatic and—innovative from minute one—used it to take pictures of cows out in the fields. Not incidentally, Hujar kept photographing cows for the rest of his life…

As many critics have pointed out, Hujar’s animal pictures are portraits. I’d add that they are often self-portraits. The man saw himself in their faces.

That fateful Brownie was probably a gift from Peter’s mother Rose. She would often appear on the farm with a little gift for her boy. They practically gave Brownies away in those days, and those gifts mattered.

Rose spent a lifetime being bitter over all sorts of things, not least the trap motherhood had sprung on her. Was that understandable? Sure. Yet some people can get past bitterness. Rose couldn’t—and that made her an impossible mother, unable to love a son who became, in his entirely different way, impossible. (Okay. Difficult.) Mother and son were opposites with much in common. Whatever love Rose once felt for Peter slowly hardened into something grotesque, and Peter’s reciprocal bitterness about Rose—defeated love, grief indistinguishable from rage—was depthless.  Everything conspired to wreck their bond. By the end, there was nothing left but the wreckage. 

And talk about distance! Rose retired to the Bronx, but it might have been Timbuktu. When Peter became sick, she did not visit. When he was dying, she did not come. When we offered to send a car to bring her to and from his funeral mass, she said no.

Years before, when some of Peter’s work had been given a glowing review in the New York Times, he’d called Rose to tell her that he was being discussed as an important artist in America’s newspaper of record and suggested she might want to take a look. She answered in a voice of solid ice, “Peter, you know perfectly well that I don’t read the Times.”

How Hujar, around age eleven, made the transition from the sodden farm to Manhattan, and how he broke through to his destiny as an artist must be stories for another time.

Until next week!